Reminiscing

That night he drove out to see her for the last time in his old Mercedes benz. She snuck out of her house unnoticed as usual and got into his car. He brought her pizza and he was drinking from a bottle of vodka. They lay in companionable silence on the reclined front seats, starring out at the stars through the open roof of his car. They knew they had lost eachother forever but there was still that comfort of each other's presence. She knew she would probably never find anyone who would respect her as much as he did; and he knew he would never love anyone else as much as he did her.
They held hands...unspoken regret in the air.

And after that night, they learnt to hate eachother to deal with being apart.

U G L Y

I just really hate that word. Especially when it is used to describe a person's appearance. I hate to see people rate a person's appearance by their idea of perfection. Beauty is relative to me. It is not one thing.
We all have the same basic features, just differently made...it's a thing of wonder if you ask me. None is greater than the other.
I have grown to fall in love with the variation of faces...to think of it as a fascination.
I like to see everyone and everything as art; and if you look from that perspective, nothing is ugly. Everything is just...the way they are made. "Beautiful" is what you make it.
The only ugly things under the sun are hatred, selfishness, wickedness, violence and the likes. But physically, no one is ugly. Everything is perfect.

You all different.  You all are special. You all are art. You all are beautiful💟

Art- Pablo Piccasso

This is what you have done my love.

Wrote this months ago. Just found it and thought Id post it.

She's running as fast as she can without looking back. She feels the rough rocks cut into her bare feet, and the thorns of bushes scrape her legs. Her vision is blurred by tears, and the wind doesnt make it any better, her hair is blowing into her eyes. She can feel the pain in her lungs from running so long. An hour? Maybe two. But the pain she feels inside...in her heart and soul distracts her from all physical pain. No matter how fast she runs, she cant seem to get far enough. The hurt is with her. Has she died? Has she crumbled into countless pieces in the wind and become insignificant particles? Surely no one can survive such. Any being would become none existent after being this broken.
  She's screaming. Not from any sort of pain u can understand, but from memories. She's pressing her palms to her ears, running and screaming. Because she hears her name on his lips. Yes. He said it. And she saw them. He said the words only meant for her ears to another. Her world, her love, her existence was looking into the eyes of another and defiling his body which was meant for her. He said he would wait. She gave him her hand, she gave him her promise. But no. He threw it away. He threw her away. And the hurt wont stop. Its ripping her remembering his breath. She stumbles. Gasping. Praying it is over, but more pain hits her. No friends. No family. And now no love. So no life. Yes. No life. She's digging into the sand. There's a sharp stone. She holds it to her wrist and tears slowly. She doesnt feel a thing. Nothing at all. And that is good. The pain bleeds away into the dirt. She's slipping into the peaceful nothingness of oblivion.
   "This is what u have done my love. U have drained me of life. This is what u have done my love"

2014

We never stop growing into something better till we die
But some people die while they're still alive
They watch themselves wither and decay within themselves
Their souls get so hungry that it starts to affect their health

I want to tell you now... feed your curiosity
Face all of your fears, free yourselves of animosity
Don't be afraid to fall deep in love
And if your heart is broken, pick the pieces up

I want you to look into the mirror and smile
I want you to love your life and not just survive
Find your passion Find your centre Find yourself
Accept what cannot be changed, be at peace within yourself

Also, never forget to be good to your neighbour
Be good to friends and be good to your lover
You only live once, make sure you live life right
So that in the end you can smile and say goodnight xx

HAPPY NEW YEAR!